I have been unsatisfied for quite some time. Not unhappy–in fact, I’ve been very happy. But there’s been a nagging something deep within, that this can’t be IT. There has to be more to life than this.
On the surface, I would think that I have a pretty full life. A wonderful husband, 3 children, great friends, solid family relationships, a fantastic church and so much to do that I never sit down. However, there is something inside of me that is not fulfilled. Something I can’t quite put my finger on. That’s what this journey is about.
I’m a deeply spiritual person. I know that all satisfaction in life is given by God alone. But what I am seeking here is His specific will for my life. I have this feeling that I can do something GREAT before I die. And I know that I am doing great things that are unseen in the raising of my children, in quiet service to others, etc. I don’t belittle these things. But I know there is more. I know I’m not living up to my full potential.
I’m reminded of the parable Jesus told of the talents (found in Matthew 25:14-30 and Luke 19:11-27). A man, someone of great resources, entrusted 3 of his servants with different amounts of money. Two of the servants invested the money and brought it back to him with the interest it had earned. The third servant took what was given to him and buried it in the ground to protect it. This angered the ruler and he rebuked the third servant, taking away what he had given to him and giving it to the others.
I don’t want to be this third servant. I know that God has given me passions, talents and abilities to use on this earth. I don’t want to be found hiding them so as to protect myself from any loss. I want to be a risk-taker, because I believe that you can only produce something GREAT by taking risks.
So here it is, I’ve laid it all out. I hope you will find something of you in my journey. You may not have the same religious beliefs or political leanings that I have, and that’s ok. There is something built in to all humankind that desires *something more.* And I am setting out to find what that is.
